Haihh… I noticed lately since his wife and baby came home, there’s lesser time for us already! Serious! That made me think twice whether wanna keep the relationship going on or back off? But… I look at him.. I feel sorry for him because he is mentally locked in that home. What else I can do apart from waiting for him patiently…?
Oh well. I don’t demand much. I just need someone chat more, accompany more, do more and many more to go but I think he is quite limited most of them. Sighs.
Honestly I am quite down because of him. First, he could ignored me all the time though that was not his wish, he only texted me at late night π Second, he could not accompany me more already. Third, he is able not arrange the time for himself! It seems his activities all have to ask permissions from his wife π
So, I thought back about those guys I had been together previously. Everything was easier than me and him π
But it’s ok. In fact, I could actually choose Keskon over him because Keskon is one of guys now hardworking to concern me almost everyday non stop. But he is also my long life buddy. I knew him since college time. Considered old friends and he was the one who has been liking me since college time until now. A limited edition bachelor now. But… not my type though. I prefer we are being good friends just like now.
I chosen H over every guys because… I don’t know how to say. I fell in love with him on everything he did for me although there is not much he could do but at least a little will do. Similar case with Keskon, he has known me long time. Mutual friends and I only knew him recent years ago when he texted me back for first time a few years ago. Around in year 2015 with first Wechat message. Later to Whatsapp. So the story went on until now where we are. Just that the big changes is him only after having the baby π
I do appreciate everything I did with him. Indeed. Not easy I assumed. I knew he is also not easy to have me after many years. Just a luck for him that he managed to get me after many years and still locking me with him.
Oh well.. I admitted it is pretty torturing! π
I don’t know what next again and dare not to think further already! So scared. But I still try to give chances.
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